Bond… or free?

March 21, 2008 at 6:55 am (My life, Walk with God) (, )

  [Taken from Galatians 4, KJV] …thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ. Howbeit then, when ye knew not God, ye did service unto them which by nature are no gods. But now, after that ye have known God, or rather are known of God, how turn ye again to the weak and beggarly elements, whereunto ye desire again to be in bondage?

Pay special attention to that last part. That’s me. I know – or am known by – God… yet I have caught myself desiring to be in bondage. Yes, I know that the things that I allow myself to be in bondage to are weak and beggarly, yet I still fall into the trap. No, I don’t. I’ll be honest. I LOOK at that trap and say, “Wow! That’s great!” and jump right into it. Stupid? Yes. True? Unfortunately.
   When I realize what I’ve done, I feel stupid and— what’s the right word? I guess I just realize how undeserving I am of God’s goodness. You see, I don’t jump into too many traps. Almost none. Except for this one thing that I just can’t seem to conquer: My imagination. Every time I think that I’ve conquered it, I see something admirable in making my escape from reality by imagining something about myself that doesn’t exist. And I jump in again.

   This week, I discovered my problem. I was praying and getting God’s help when I would quit again, but I have never involved Him afterwards. Once I’ve gone a few days without imagining things, I say, “Okay, I’ve got this thing under control.” — and I stop asking God for His assistance! How dumb is that? But it’s true.

   For me, my imagination is an addiction. It’s an escape. I’m being transparent, people. I need your prayers. I think that I can do it this time: I know that God will help me – and CONTINUE to help me as I ask Him to. I’m free in Christ! I don’t need to serve my old masters! I— AM— FREE!

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